- 05 Jan, 2026 *
My brain’s been going since 5am. A mild panic/anxiety kind of feeling, in part due to getting back to work after 2 weeks away, in part due to being on call at the same time. I’m pretty sure I fear being responsible for failure. I’m not sure where that comes from exactly, but the antidote is probably to fail more often. I had some thought recently, that I’m generally a "lucky person" and in that way, have never really suffered what I’d consider major consequences from my action or lack thereof. While that might be seen as being charmed, I think it’s also done a number on my ability to …
- 05 Jan, 2026 *
My brain’s been going since 5am. A mild panic/anxiety kind of feeling, in part due to getting back to work after 2 weeks away, in part due to being on call at the same time. I’m pretty sure I fear being responsible for failure. I’m not sure where that comes from exactly, but the antidote is probably to fail more often. I had some thought recently, that I’m generally a "lucky person" and in that way, have never really suffered what I’d consider major consequences from my action or lack thereof. While that might be seen as being charmed, I think it’s also done a number on my ability to adapte, to relate, and my resilience.
"Things get uncomfortable and you tend to fall apart." So I’ve been told. Accurately.
In my last several yoga practices, (sessions? vinyasas? yogas?) I’ve been able to flow through every pose, including the core strength poses like boat, forearm plank crunches, broken triangle, and others. It feels pretty incredible and I’ve only been back at it for a few months. But it’s a form of discomfort that leads to growth, so I try to take the things I learn on the mat into the rest of my day.
I had some other thoughts on giving up alcohol last year, finding a sustainable yoga practice for me (4x/week) and how I’m getting comfortable with being hungry more often. For now, it’s time to get to work. Let’s begin...