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- 18 Nov, 2025 *
recently i dropped out of my classes because i tried killing myself. i feel as if that’s a good reason to drop two classes, right? they weren’t hard classes, i just didn’t feel it was worth it to continue working on school when i could barely focus on my mental health. and i’m proud of it.
ever since i’ve enrolled in community college, i’ve been a litt…
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- 18 Nov, 2025 *
recently i dropped out of my classes because i tried killing myself. i feel as if that’s a good reason to drop two classes, right? they weren’t hard classes, i just didn’t feel it was worth it to continue working on school when i could barely focus on my mental health. and i’m proud of it.
ever since i’ve enrolled in community college, i’ve been a little embarrassed to tell people i go to a community college. like, oh, yeah, i’m a college freshman at insert community college. i’m planning on transferring to a four year after my sophomore year to study social work. i literally just could not afford college because it’s A) $100 million dollars and B) i didn’t save any money or apply for scholarships. and my parents won’t pay, which is fine, i just wish they told me before my junior year.
also, i feel like whenever you tell someone you go to a community college, you’re outing yourself as a bad student - i wasn’t. i was a great student in high school. i took AP and International Baccalaureate classes. i was a captain of the speech and debate team. i — by all means — was successful in high school, even if i hated it. i could’ve gone to my dream state school — i had a 3.3 gpa, and they offered me $10000 off my tuition for four years. and i love detroit, where it’s located. and i would’ve had sooo many friends.
i’m missing out.
or maybe im not. maybe it’s simply just a step to where i have to be to get to the next chapter of my life. everything will work itself out, i’m sure of it. i’m sure.
still, i can’t help but feel jealous of everyone studying at a four year. but i think that’s normal! and that’s okay too, and some people are probably jealous of me for even having the option of going to college.
and it helps too that i know a bunch of kids from my school who are going to community college — either for trades or something different or they’re like me — they made bad choices as a high schooler and decided this was the best route for them.
and that makes me feel a little less bitter.