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- 10 Nov, 2025 *
- Wake up 7am; i keep snoozing alarm which is something I want to stop. Cold shower for 4 mins. I could have gone for longer
- Eat breakfast
- Meditate for 15 mins
- Start work. Feel a bit rushed because I only have an hour to do all my pre-work tasks
- Continue to be stuck on task. Get distracted and do all my coping mechanisms such as being distracted, listening to music and getting out and in of my chair.
- These generally make things worse!
- Get little done because of this. I’m basically just stalling for time instead of being engaged. Get really mad at myself
- My worth is less so if I’m being effective i…
- 10 Nov, 2025 *
- Wake up 7am; i keep snoozing alarm which is something I want to stop. Cold shower for 4 mins. I could have gone for longer
- Eat breakfast
- Meditate for 15 mins
- Start work. Feel a bit rushed because I only have an hour to do all my pre-work tasks
- Continue to be stuck on task. Get distracted and do all my coping mechanisms such as being distracted, listening to music and getting out and in of my chair.
- These generally make things worse!
- Get little done because of this. I’m basically just stalling for time instead of being engaged. Get really mad at myself
- My worth is less so if I’m being effective it’s more if I’m trying. Because I know that I can make things work if I try but I know that things are hard if I don’t try
- I did cry today because I don’t have any support and things were just too overwhelming.
- I can’t quit though and I won’t quit.
- Finish up work and go for a long walk with parents. It’s suprising how much of a difference this makes. Just being outside. I want to be outside before I do work so that I can be in this mood.
- Eat a measured dinner but I did break my calorie limit by eating 6 pieces of chocolate!
- Read more “get out of your mind and into your life” and realize that most of my coping mechansims are just for short term avoidance which hurt me in the long run substantially. Learn about pain of presence and pain of absence.
- Learn about avoidance: Example of don’t think of the yellow hummer which causes thought to appear more than being asked to think of anything. Avoidance is a short term coping strategy which harms you long term as the more you avoid the more “persistant” it becomes. There is truely no avoiding anything. You have no choice in this.
- I have hope. I am fixable as long as I apply effort
- Watch some german videos. Look up umlauts and some pronouncation. Do my german early today with this in mind. (30mins)
- Exercise counts as 30 mins