Before you start reading, please note that this is neither educational nor useful. However, I would appreciate it if you read it to the end and gave me your perspective on the situation

This year for me has been a rollercoaster. First I got to experience grief for such a young age, losing a family member which was so important for me, then I stop receiving economical help from my mother (18 year old btw). That lead to me leaving a public university because I couldn’t be there and be at the same time with my English studies. That also lead to me having an opportunity in my English School to start teaching, I was going to start making money teaching English and I was going to be able to keep studying. Even though I’m still there, It wasn’t like I was expecting. Because I’m earning a very small amount for many hours of work. Something I greatly feared has happened I feel like I’m entering the rat race described in Rich Dad Poor Dad

When all of this was happening, on the other side something was happening. My dad was coming back after almost 10 years out of the country. I now that he’s probably gonna read this, because he was the one that introduced me to this world, but I’m gonna write it anyway, and maybe is good that he’s reading this because I am not able to talk with him or to express myself like I do writing. My father and I don’t have the best father-daughter relationship ever, because he basically abandoned me, maybe it wasn’t like that because I was a little girl I didn’t know anything, not even when he left, because he didn’t say goodbye properly. So, he’s back after all that time and want us to be like a daughter and father, when we never were. That might not seem relevant to my story, but those are things that affected me at the time and continue to affect me, so for me it is relevant

Anyway, returning to the topic of the rat race. I don’t want 5 or 10 years to pass and for me to still be in the same place, stuck. I’ve been on Stacker News for quite some time, and despite that, I never became completely involved. And I want that to change, I want to be active in here, I want to keep learning and growing. But I can’t help feeling so small and intimidated in this place

I want to write and publish more often, because it’s something I enjoy when I’m motivated. And I still have many things to say, probably most of them about myself, but I want to learn enough to make useful contributions to this community

Btw, I wrote like a 70% of this by myself (the other 30% was with google translator), English is not my first language and I think if I start writing more often I’m gonna improve my writing skills