So I am 18yo male. I am just gonna start by saying I’m an avid internet user. I just love internet and I’m online pretty much for a decent amount of time. So the problem starts here- I make comments on yt shorts or just anything I watch in general cause I love it.... there is no reason to why I comment stuff but I just want to put my opinion out there, my opinion doesn’t matter much at home cause im the youngest which is fine I guess....

So a few days ago my mom was like peeking into my phone (basically invading my privacy) and I was watching this youtuber that I really like, she is a Chinese woman that teaches about Chinese history and stuff. I am really into that kind of stuff and I love it. It is my escape from 9 hour study day.... sou was watching her- mind you,without disturbing anyone minding my own business and mom comes in to say- “you always watch those ching ching people..... why do you comment in such stuff?? I don’t want you to comment on the internet, I don’t like it at all”....

First of all- this is my own internet account. I am a grown ass adult and I think I have the right to do or say what I want (until or unless it doesn’t harm anyone around me). She went on ahead about a whole rant about how you tubers scam people out of everything and they are not good at all and you should not watch such things.... (she uses snapshot herself and scrolls through highlights all the time). Now- the first thing that I don’t understand about this argument is that- why watching youtubers is bad? The second thing I don’t understand is- why does she always have something negative to say about the content that I watch?? I mean- it’s not like I’m learning Italian brainrot or something.... I’m learning history and building a good world view... idk for some reason I pride myself in knowing random facts. That’s just how I am.

I told her that she was hating the content I watch for no reason and if she had an argument about my studies- I am pretty decent at that currently. I get A’s at my school and on my entrance exam tests I’m scoring a decent score.... I am trying to improve and learning all day. My average study hours are 8-9 hours (including my classes and school).

The next day my mom went to my dad and told him about this- he came in and told me how my mom was crying to him and telling him that I am not focusing on my studies and I’m not doing enough. She told him that she is tired of telling me to do stuff

The major beef that she had was that my sleep schedule is very bad- which I accept IS BAD. I go to sleep at 2 am and rise up at 9am or sometimes even 10am. This is because at night I consume internet and do side quests like homework and stuff. I think it is a pretty valid reason for my sleep schedule.... my dad went on to say that I must sleep before 12 and do my stuff in the morning, which I accepted. I think that my sleep schedule needs to be fixed fr.

*The only thing about this whole thing that hurt me though was that my dad said-“You made your mom cry, what kind of son are you??”. I just felt heartbroken because I study and do all this hardworking for my parents only. If I had the choice to be an artist and content creator (which was actually my dream) rather than a doctor, I would have defiantely done it. They know that I am not doing this by my will, so I think they should not at least say such things. It hurts me to listen to this after a tiring day of study and endless study.

My mom’s main issue was that due to my weird schedule she has to do all the housework in a weird way. For example if she made breakfast- she will keep it in a container for me to eat later cause I didn’t wake up by that time. I have told her multiple times that I know where the food is and I can eat it on my own and serve myself but she has this weird thing where she needs to serve everyone... I think that is very unnecessary, I mean God has given me hands and I can do my own things by myself. She don’t HAVE to do it for me... I am grown enough. I have told her to go and check patients (she Is a doctor) but instead she keeps at home “to do my things”. I have told her that i can do my things on my own but she doesn’t seem to understand that it’s ok to not always be there for your child. Some things- they can do on their own.

They are right about the sleep schedule- but cutting off internet is really bad for me since it is the only thing I do out of my day that I genuinely like and learn from.

The only advice I need from you guys is- Am I actually such a bad person for making my mom cry (not on purpose).... what change can I bring in to replenish my relationship with my family... or does it even matter?? I am thinking on just fixing my sleep schedule and communicate less with them since everytime I try to speak with them or open up about my interests and stuff they downplay it which hurts me... So should I just stay silent and ignore??